the word is friendship...look it up

I realized that it's almost been over a month, so I thought that I would go ahead and try to come up with something to put on here. So I will try to sum up one cohesive thought that I have acknowledged over this last month.

It's easy to be tempted, even when you are happy. Especially when you know what it is like to have "been there, done that". But you realize how strong you actually are when you have the ability to deny that temptation. That being said, truly happy with my choices that I have made so far. Everything kind of seems to be falling into place except for that pesky job situation.

I've realized how many times things are beyond my control. And no matter how hard you can try to make everyone like you, there will always be someone rooting against you for one reason or another. I had a "family" situation this past month and it really wore me down. To hear someone say that they didn't think I was good enough or to imply that I am using someone really hurts, especially when that person really means a lot to me.

Sometimes conflict can bring out the worst qualities in a person, and I just hope that I can keep my composure. While we all know I'm hot headed, I really do try to keep things contained unless I'm in a one-on-one situation. That being said, I'm allowing myself this one singular rant from a past weekend. When someone puts forth the effort to make an appearance in your life whether it be out of the way or an everyday occurrence, either be appreciative of their presence and spend time with them OR tell them that you really would prefer not to have them around. Sending mixed signals makes no one happy and hurts relationships/friendships more than you could have ever realized.

Now, I know that seems general to some of you. But others can probably take it personally. I do not intend to maintain my friendships one sided. While I love all of my friends to death, I do not appreciate being a door mat. Make the time for me, or I will show you the exact same consideration you have shown me all along.